urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii Total Nimrod Total Nimrod 2003-04-03T05:47:32Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:9102 2003-04-03T05:47:32Z 2003-04-03T05:47:32Z nothing. I took this from <div class='ljparseerror'>[<b>Error:</b> Irreparable invalid markup ('&lt;a [...] //www.livejournal.com/~_plainjane&quot;&gt;') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]<br /><br /><div style="width: 95%; overflow: auto">I took this from &lt;a href=&quot;http&quot;//www.livejournal.com/~_plainjane&quot;&gt;Erin&lt;/a&gt;<br />++ your name<br />[x] What?s your first name? Nichole<br />[x] What?s your middle name? Marie <br />[x] Do you have any nicknames? yes.<br />[x] Who named you? My momma.<br />[x] Why did they name you this? Because she liked it!<br />[x] Do you like your name? NOPE.<br />[x] If you could have any name, what would it be? Jocelyn or like.. Jennifer. <br />[x] Why? Because its better than my name.<br /><br />++ your age<br />[x] How old are you? 13<br />[x] Do people say you look your age? Nope, everyone thinks I&#39;m my 21 yr old sister or thinks I&#39;m in highschool.<br />[x] If no, how old do they say you look? I just told you, you fag.<br />[x] Are most of your friends your age? <br />[x] If you could be any age, how old would you be? 15 or 16.<br />[x] Why? Because its better than being 13!!!<br /><br />++ have you ever...<br />[x] Been called a slut in a joking manner? yes<br />[x] Been called a slut in a serious manner? yes<br />[x] Been called a bitch in a joking manner? yes<br />[x] Been called a bitch in a serious manner? yes<br />[x] Been called a loser in a joking manner? yes<br />[x] Been called a loser in a serious manner? yes<br />[x] Been called a loner in a joking manner? yes<br />[x] Been called a loner in a serious manner? no<br />[x] Bungee jumped? nope. <br />[x] Skydived? no.<br />[x] Gotten into a physical fight? maaaannyy times.<br />[x] Gotten suspended? from the computer &amp;other luxury things.<br />[x] Skipped school? I CAN&#39;T. <br /><br />++ are you..<br />[x] Spoiled? hell noo. <br />[x] Rude? to some people. <br />[x] Quiet? not frequently. <br />[x] Smart? No. <br />[x] Stupid? Indeed I am.<br />[x] Friendly? to some people. <br />[x] Reliable? for other people, not for myself. <br />[x] Trustworthy? Yes.<br />[x] Responsible? nope.<br />[x] Attractive? NOPE.<br />[x] Ugly? YEP.<br />[x] Conceited? No. <br />[x] Modest? I guess.<br />[x] A liar? sometimes.<br />[x] A follower? rarely.<br />[x] A trendsetter? rarely.<br />[x] Fake? no<br />[x] Original? I don&#39;t think I am.<br />[x] Lyk totally kewl? lol.<br /><br />++ livejournal<br />[x] How long have you been on LiveJournal? since about November 2002.<br />[x] Who do you know best on LiveJournal? Farron &amp; Lefy &amp; Nicole.<br />[x] Why do you update? &quot;to reflect&quot;; I don&#39;t in eljay, its all for fun, I take things seriously in my &lt;a href=&quot;http://rapeme.diary-x.com&quot;&gt;d-x.&lt;/a&gt; <br />[x] Are you honest about yourself in your LiveJournal? I s&#39;pose so.<br />[x] Have you ever made up a story in your LiveJournal? no<br />[x] Do you aim for comments when you update? sometimes.<br />[x] If everyone on your friend list left LiveJournal, would you leave, too? No.<br />[x] Is there anyone on your friend list who you don&#39;t like? no, I only keep FRIENDS on a FRIENDS list, DUHHH.<br />[x] Have you ever commented someone just so they would comment you? nope. <br />[x] Do comments matter? no.<br /><br />++ social<br />[x] Do you have a lot of friends? an even amount of em.<br />[x] Is being well known important to you? well known? I don&#39;t get that question.<br />[x] How many close friends do you have? Hmmm.. about 10-15?<br />[x] How many not-so-close friends do you have? Hmm.. about 10-15? lol.<br />[x] Would you rather have a few close friends or a lot of not-so-close friends? a few close friends, no DOUBT.<br />[x] Do your friends like you for you? Yes, I think.<br />[x] If you wore a ripped up, purple, polka dotted dress to school, do you think that would change your friendship with people? They&#39;d laugh &amp; say it was cool, lol.<br />[x] Name some of your friends: There are too many &amp; I must be off soon.<br />[x] Do you think they would name you as a friend? Hopefully!<br />[x] Let&#39;s say a girl that has frizzy hair, a limited too tee shirt, buck teeth, and -- okay let&#39;s say an ugly person came up to you and asked if they could sit by you. What would you say? Are you being honest? It depends on how everyone else was being &amp; her body language. If she looked me in the eye &amp; did something that made me think &#39;Aww shes sweet.&#39; I&#39;d MAYBE say yes, but most likely, I&#39;d run away once I saw her coming to avoid saying &#39;yes&#39;, since I wouldn&#39;t be able to say no.</div></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:8707 2003-04-01T02:22:34Z 2003-04-01T02:22:34Z "Somewhere I Belong"--Linkin Park 5:12pm<br /> Oh dear. Family crisis. My parents are getting fed up with my sister. She's always getting in wrecks & they are talking about taking her off their insurance. <br /><br />She just got in a wreck with some couple with a baby, & she said they had barely anything on their car, but the guy got out of his car & screamed at her saying "Were taking the baby to the pediatrician now, we gotta check if everything is okay."<br /><br />She's whining now how her 'car is so ugly, & her life is so fucked up.' She's hysterical. She was on her way to her plastic surgery appointment thingy. She's getting a boob job. No one told me. I found out, as I do with everything in this family.<br /><br />She's such an idiot, she was talking to my Mom about her plans for taking time off work for her boob job recovery, & she said, "I'm taking 4 days off, that should be enough, right?" Uhh.. no. It takes like weeks to recover from that.<br /><br />I just know I don't want to be around her, while she is sore & crap. I also don't want to have to look at her after it, because plastic surgery scares me, especially on boobies. I can't imagine doing that, I'd freak out & run away before any doctor could touch me.<br /><br />I didn't go to school today, because my Mom 'didn't feel like taking me.' I've been so bored all day.<br /><br />I'm pissed off at my sister for getting in a car wreck, because now my Dad will be screaming & yelling ALL night & I'll have to listen to him rant. <br /><br />I took some pictures today, out of boredness of course.<br /><br />My Dad just came home &went off about the wreck. "The people she hit were Asian, so you know they'll milk it for all its worth. They had a baby in the car with them.." I rolled my eyes &gave out a huge sigh when he started bitching about them being Asian.<br /><br />He looked at me & went, "You better shut the fuck up, I don't want to hear yr liberal bull shit." Heh. Sorry if I'm not racist, who cares if their Asian? NOT ONLY ASIANS DO THAT. GODDD.<br /><br />Then they started talking & at first it was calm, but my Mom brought up the fact my sister's knee was injured because she banged it on the dashboard, due to the fact she had no seatbelt on, & my Dad blew up.<br /><br />Then they stood up in their seats, &she backed up & threw her chair &it hit some of my Mom's china &broke it & then they started going TOTALLY off on eachother, & he ran over to her & pushed her & she pushed him back, so he grabbed her by the neck & slammed her into the wall.<br /><br />She got pissed off & left.<br /><br />He says her priorites are out of whack. "All she cares about is getting her boobs!!" He keeps saying. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:8635 2003-03-28T05:34:49Z 2003-03-28T05:34:49Z "Rejected"--Rancid <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/A/ADICTSxSMILE77/1048015164_shooligans.jpg" border="0" alt="NEW PUNKERS"><br>ROCK ON!<br />Kill the establishment! You are a new punker! Punks<br>been around for a long time but have just had<br>your eyes opened! You seem to get along with<br>the street punx but the oi kids dont like you<br>too much! You feel intimidated but dont let it<br>show! You know that you are punk and you are<br>fucking proud of it! Show it off and DESTROY!!!<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/ADICTSxSMILE77/quizzes/What%20kind%20of%20PUNK%20are%20you%3F!%3F!%3F!%3F!%3F/"> <font size="-1">What kind of PUNK are you?!?!?!?!?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br /><br> WOO HOOO!!!! The Distillers were on MTV earlier. I totally glued myself to the tube for that. I &lt;3 Brody, I think she's so cool. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:8374 2003-03-26T04:55:31Z 2003-03-26T04:55:31Z none. I've been feeling incredibly stupid lately. I used to pride myself &think I was the smartest thing alive, but now... I must've fried some brain cells or something because I <b>am an idiot.</b><br /><br />I don't think I'll ever fully like myself. I'll always dislike this or that about myself &that's normal, I s'pose. It's just.. I'm tired of feeling this way all the damn time.<br /><br /> When I eat, I always make myself feel guilty. Then I think about what I could do with the food. Throw it up! Not eat it! Yadda, yadda. I hate having food issues, very much so.<br /><br />I get insecure over the stupidest things. <br /><br />I'm not depressed, I'm just.. dead. It's inexplicable how I feel. I dislike myself, yet I accept myself at the same time.<br /><br />Maybe I'm jus thinking way to much for my own good. I totally neglect eljay. I'm sorry. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:7955 2003-03-19T02:57:13Z 2003-03-19T03:04:41Z "Chicken' Huntin"--ICP Today Erica &I got in a food fight &I can still feel &smell banana in my hair. I'm in need of a shower, hmph.<br /><br />Tiffany's party was okay. It was long &I think I ate too much there.<br />I'm stressed over the damn science fair. Thank god this week is the final week.<br /><br />Jency promised to bring me my ICP mix tomorrow. If she doesn't, I'll die. I love Shaggy. I need to give Jency her Sticks &Stones back though. Damn.<br /><br />I'm going to an NFG,GC,MXPX, &Less Than Jake concert in May. That should be fun. I'm going with Jen, too. Double woot.<br /><br />Ashton Kutcher is such a hottie, his new show "Punk'd" is hilarious. I think Justin Timberlake, was kinda cute on it. :X<br /><br />I'm not sure if I want to be in track. I was thinking about it today, &I'm sort of regretting signing it up. Oh well...I could always quit.<br /><br />America sucks. I'm no longer having patriotism for this shit hole. Were stupid. We declare war on 'terror.' What the fuck is terror? Why can't we just come out &say that were going to kick Suddam Hussein's ass?!we do is talk. All we do is work for peace. Fuck peace. Peace is what leads us to be taken advantage of &fucking terrorized like on 9.11.<br /><br />I'm fed up with the media as well. The news isnt NEW anymore. It talks about the same shit over &over &over.<br /><br />"8 Mile" came out today. I've never seen it. Must buy. Eminem sort of sucks now. I never REALLY liked him, but he was okay. Have you heard ICP's Emimem dissing songs? "Nothin But A Bitch Thang", "Slim Anus", etc. They're hella funny! Eminem gets fucked in the ass in one of them.<br /><br />I have a really bad need...no..ACHE, to go to the mall or do heavy duty shopping. I need CLOTHES. My Mom says I'm being ridiculous &I don't need anymore clothes, that I have enough, but I'm dying!! I need some fuckin clothes!<br /><br />I cleaned my room yesterday, well sort of &I found the weirdest things in it, like TONS of unused pads. Odd. I need to return my duplicate of the Used CD to Target &get a different CD. I want to get Saves The Day, "Stay What You Are." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:7656 2003-03-17T23:45:14Z 2003-03-17T23:45:14Z AHH. I miss this thing. I haven't updated in forever. I'm sowwy. I'm wrapped up in my diary-x, that's all. Hmph. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:7352 2003-03-04T00:39:44Z 2003-03-04T00:41:00Z "Motivation Proclimation"--Good Charlotte Today was okay. I puked in 1st period because my stomach just started making me feel all woozy so I sprinted to the bathroom. Shit went down with Erica. <br />She thinks she can beat me up, HA. Jo backed me up on that arguement &told her I could blow her ass away. Aha! She of course shut up &said nothing.<br /><br />Basketball season is nearly over &I plan to join track to get my legs all fit &stuff. I want them to look NICE for ONCE. My Mom wants me to join softball, I might..you never know.<br /><br />My plants for the science fair have started to grow. THANKFUCKINGGOD. It's half of my friggen grade for this quarter! If they didn't grow, I'd die. I'm expecting to do over all pretty well on my mid terms. <br /><br />One subject worries me of course, &that's math. I hope to god I do well in it. HOPE TO GOD. Erica was being a shitter to Jency today. I felt bad. But I thnik I was being pretty mean to her, she just needs to keep her hands off my food! Lol.<br /><br /> My Mom was making comments to me about my weight today. Fuck her. Ugh. I have to finish this essay for my music class now, I must be off. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:6959 2003-03-03T01:01:33Z 2003-03-03T01:01:33Z "Cadillac"--Mest My Mom found you last night. "You" being my livejournal. She read the entry I wrote from Nessa's house. She freaked, lets put it at that. I have a blurty now. It's just like eljay, dude. I've been online all day, I should go lay down or something. Bah.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.blurty.com/users/insanedisaster">add me,nigga.</a> News of the NFG &Good Charlotte tour is kick ass. Why do people hate on them? New Found Glory is totally not a poser band. They're NOT like Avril Lavigne. They kick ass. I listen to them all the time. Good Charlotte..well, I see where people are coming from when they call them posers.<br /><br />Sorry Joel. Tiffany's party is next weekend. Am I going? Oh fo sho. My stupid plant for the science fair better grow or else I'll have to buy a plant &slap it in that pot.<br /><br />I IMed Cass, &she won't even talk to me now. Ugh. I'm through with them. I don't even CARE anymore. They're all stupid, except Justin. He's still cool.<br /><br />Someone told me that from reading my diary-x, they got the impression that I totally hate myself &went, "it must suck to live in such pain &agony." They weren't making fun of me either. But, I don't live in TOTAL PAIN &AGONY. So I was shocked.<br /><br />Do I really sound like that? It really got me to thinking. I guess I need to pick up the old "Love yourself, &other people will too." sort of motto in life. But really, I'm not depressed, I just get in these..moods.<br /><br />I was watching "All Things Rock" the other night &they did this British punk bad special &when Benji &Joel were presenting a video from The Cure, Benji went, "Joel used to sit in his room &cry listening to the Cure, it was hilarious."<br /><br />Aww I feel you Joel. Yr so damn cute, can I just unzip your pants NOW?! LOL. I hate being on my period. It hurts so bad that my ass even hurts. Ugh. I want to watch "Pearl Harbor" &eat some Cocoa Pebbles. Yeah, yeah! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:6874 2003-02-26T04:52:11Z 2003-02-26T04:52:11Z "Boys &Girls"--New Found Glory Today was okay. I come to school &everyone is making me smile &open my mouth. I hate braces. I managed to eat a whole bag of funyuns today, though. But I'm really sore now. I'm ugly enough as it is, braces just make me look 10 times worse. Really now. I fell asleep in class today. I don't think Mr.Rim minds me falling asleep. Odd..The science composition book was given back to us today, I got an A. I was so worried of failing. Ha.<br /><br /> I asked Mr.Rim to do an extra credit assignment, since I bombed the SS test we had a couple weeks ago. I'm not having to do an essay on the Italian Renaissance that must be due by Friday. Justin &I are talking right now, &apparently he isn't aware of the fact Robert &Cass are together now. He just went, "Whoa!Whoa!Whoa! Back up!What?!" He totally hates Cass, I think it's all really funny though. He said he just lost a lot of respect for Robert now. Is it sick that I'm glad in a way?<br /><br />Braces suck my right nut. They totally whomp. Ahh. I've done a lot of shit today. -pats self on the back-..cept math of course.I must go now. -leaps- Bye! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:6415 2003-02-23T20:48:25Z 2003-02-23T20:48:25Z some video game. Everytime I come over here, I end up thinking Vanessa's parents really hate me. I fight with Vanessa's little sister so she ran &told on me. We were fighting over the computer, so Vanessa &I dumped her out of the seat. Jency plays the drums pretty well. She like the friggen drummer from the Donnas. Lol.<br /><br /> I haven't done a whole lot of homework, which is worrying me. I don't want braces. I feel crappy &stupid right now. I think I have a learning disabilitiy or ADD, ADHD, no lie. I have the attention span of zero. I'm so bored. I suck at DDR. WAH.<br /><br />Cheer up emo kid. =) Hah!!Ugh. I don't want to go home to nothing but SCREAMING today. I wish I lived in a mansion, so I wouldn't have to see my parents as much.I hate Cass. She sucks ass. Does she feel the need to rub everything in my face? "Robert calls me every night around 11 &always wakes me up out of a deep sleep. He always goes, "I needed to talk to you." -flips her off- Fuck you bitch. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:6246 2003-02-23T18:27:49Z 2003-02-23T18:27:49Z "Edward Scissor Hands" I haven't updated this in forever. Sorry eljay. Things have been okay lately,I guess. I went to Sheena's party yesterday, got totally disgusted with my parents, &invited to go over Vanessa's with Jency.<br /><br /> So I'm here now.Last night, we stayed up late talking, Vanessa fell asleep on us. Jency &I were forking at a whole batch of rise krispie treats, eating doritos &drinking water.<br />We stuffed a dorito in Vanessa's mouth because it was open when she was sleeping. LOL. We took pics of it too.<br /><br /> We didn't have any lights on &being in the dark &trying to eat was irritating me so we took the food &sat on Vanessa's bed for an hour talking &eating it. Then we just crashed there, &this morning I woke up &I turned towards the door &Vanessa's face was there. I was like "Holy shit!" &she started laughing.<br /><br /> Then Vanessa was mad we had food in her room &started cleaning it &crap. Then she was jealous we were in bed together. LOL. Last night, we were all shitfaced it was fun. I mooned them all. They took a picture of it.<br />Fun.<br /> I'm off now. I've done no homework. Jamie is hot. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:6082 2003-02-23T18:14:53Z 2003-02-23T18:14:53Z Hello this is Nichole (definately not Farron or anything of that sort) &I would just like to say that Farron is the best person ever &that I love her with all of my heart. FARRON ROCKS! You'd better believe it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:5795 2003-01-27T20:42:58Z 2003-01-27T20:42:58Z "Meet The Parents" My sister is such a crack head. Last night around midnight, she came into my room..<br /><br />Erica:Do you have a rubber duckie?<br />Me:(Laughs)Uhhh...no.<br />Erica:God dammit!<br />Me:Why would you need a rubber duckie?<br />Erica:For this retarded class I'm taking for school..I don't know, my professor is insane.<br />Me:(Laughs)Sorry.Don't have one.<br />Erica:But remember when you were little! You had one you'd squeak around!Remember?????<br />Me:No.<br />Erica:BUT YOU HAD ONE!<br />Me:Dude..I don't have a rubber duckie..accept the fact, and move on.<br />Erica:*Walks off mumbling* Where would I find such a rubber duckie? Stupid! Stupid!<br /><br /> She needs serious help. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:5198 2003-01-27T07:07:02Z 2003-01-27T07:07:02Z "South Park" <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/glitterbugbabe/quizzes/**Whose%20your%20Good%20Charlotte%20HOTTIE%3F!%3F!**/"><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/G/glitterbugbabe/1039844085_piconsJoel.gif" border="0" alt=""><br> <font size="-1">**Whose your Good Charlotte HOTTIE?!?!**</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br />I'm Joel! Yay! I'm Joel! I'm Joel, I'm Joel,I'm Joel!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:4991 2003-01-27T06:45:15Z 2003-01-27T06:45:15Z "The City of Angels"--The Distillers Reading some people's diaries, like Lefy's made me think about how I miss romance in my life. "Colby carried me to my bed, when I fell asleep watching movies." The little things make up the big picture. Cute little things a guy does, make all the shitty things he does, forgot about. How he holds your hand, how he kisses you when you cry, how he holds you, and how he looks at you. I miss that. I need that. I never really had that. I need a guy who isn't a bullshitter. I need a guy whose sincere. I need a nice guy. =) I don't want to have another ass. Please!! I want a guy I can relate to on an intellectual basis. Robert and I never had that. I'd say something and he'd go, "Your so smart." And I didn't feel like I could talk to him about politics, social shit, etc. Which is the basis of a successful relationship. I miss everything I had in the summer. But after all that shit went down with Zach last night, I'm so happy I'm out of that phase in my life. I was so awkward..<br /><br /> I was just finding out a whole lot of shit I never had before...I think I formed my ACTUAL personality over the summer. My dog keeps barking and its irritating the shit out of me. Let me go bitch at her..My Dad has taken my guitar hostage. I kicked him out of the room when he was playing it, because I was watching "A Walk to Remember" and then he went into his bedroom, and my Mom kicked him out, so now he's in the garage. HaHa. I'm not going to work at Erica's mom's place tommorow. She told me I couldn't. Dammit! I need to go shopping! Guess how much money I have? $10 bucks. $10 measly bucks. Wee! Just enough money to buy ONE WRISTBAND. YAY!...NOT! I need a job. A well paying job! Immediately!!!! Erica and I talked on the phone tonight. It was fun. We haven't talked in awhile. Blah. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:4835 2003-01-24T03:32:48Z 2003-03-03T01:24:51Z "It's Been A Summer"--New Found Glory This has to be quick...Here it goes..<br /> So the boy totally hates me, he fucking hates me. Well what else would it be? He calls Cass out of the blue and fucking talks to her, but he can't me? What have I done to make everyone hate me so much? Make everyone totally stop caring? Don't tell me "It's too hard loving you." Because thats not the truth!!! You know it isn't!! How can you just totally forget about me? <br /><br />Did anything we have mean much to you? Do you understand that I care about you and would take my life for yours, no matter what?! Even if we don't talk anymore, and even if you don't like me anymore, and even if we dont get along, I'll never give up these feelings for you. They're too intense. <br /><br />I can't just ignore them. You mean so much to me..no matter how much I try to fight myself, this is how I feel, and I can't stop and reject this feeling. So I miss you, A LOT. I think about you all the time, because I'm pathetic. I spend my nights alone and I feel lonely. I feel crappy...I feel like the loser I am. I was so crushed to find this out...you call her? God..I'm such a freak, he doesn't even read this..why am I referring to him? <br /><br />Just call me Miss.Lonely Heart and put on my DUNCE cap, I belong alone and single. Kill me, please. Pound on my heart, I'm begging you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:4491 2003-01-23T02:23:59Z 2003-03-03T01:20:55Z "Perfect"--Simple Plan Like the new layout? =D I'll make some changes to it this Friday, when I have time. But oh wait..that fundraiser thingy for camp this year is on Friday. Oh well..I'll have time. I'm stressing out so badly!! I'm really afraid when report cards come out that I'll get grounded again or something...we finished up the math test today, or at least we were supposed to, I didn't. <br /><br />I missed about 5 problems, now I'm freaking stressing the fuck out. If I don't do well this quarter, I'm literally fucked.So like can I be anymore stressed? Today, sucked major balls…<br /><br />This morning Mom was screaming at me and shit and called me a “pig” and said I ate too much. I EAT TOO MUCH!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! I'm puking up all my insides tonight. =D <br /><br />Then today at lunch I got in a fight with Alysha. Angie said something about basketball and Alysha called me a lazyass so I said this exactly,"You mother fucking bitch!!! I don't see you being at all ambitious or at all fucking slim! So shut the fuck up!!" Then Angie said some more shit to me while we were at practice..just saying mean as stuff..So I was like, "Angie, if you fucking say anymore to me, I swear to got I'll be right down your throat you stupid bitch. I'll fucking fuck you up, so shut up you stupid fat ass bitch." <br /><br />Angie should talk about people being lazy..she weighs like 400 lbs. It REALLY hurts in basketball, when she happens to fall on you. Then she started poking me, cuz she's freaking stuck in elementary school and is just extremely retarded, so I was like, "Don't fucking touch me." she kept doing it, so I slapped her and told her to step off, then she slapped me back...I swear I'll beat the shit out of her. <br /><br />Erica is now a starter.......!!!!! Yesterday, we had a scrimage game at Harker. I fucking love that school..it's so big, and RIIICH!!! It costs $18,000 a year to go there. We lost the scrimage, but I felt okay, about playing. <br /><br />At least better than I usually feel like. I felt really...fat compared to everyone else. Where am I going???? <br /><br />I can't watch the "Osbournes" anymore, because Kelly Osbourne is a fucking spoiled brat. I always knew she was a brat, but I still liked her, and her music is pretty good too. But last night's episode pissed me off. She screams at her parents and they let her get away from it,compared to me, my Mom slammed me into the wall when I mimicked her yesterday. <br /><br />She tells her Mom to "go suck a donkey's dick" and gets nothing but a petty slap on the face, I'd be grounded and get way more than just that. She leaves for New York to do all these kick ass things with celebrities and shit, and the whole time she is whining and not appreciating it. <br /><br />If I had such an opportunity as her, I would love every moment of it, and never take it for granted. But noooo...she's an Osbourne, and gets everything handed to her on a frikken silver platter. I wanna be an Osbourne. <br /><br />So yeah, she leaves for New York with $100 bucks and her Dad insists to give her more money, and she probably had about $600 something dollars when he gave her some more. Spoiled brat...Wanna know how much money I get from my parents? $20 and I have to pay them back. I have no job, no money, and I wanna go shopping like hell. I'd kill to be an Osbourne!! <b>KILL.</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:4273 2003-01-21T04:44:10Z 2003-03-03T01:27:31Z "You Wanna Get Me High"--The Donnas I never update this thing...I feel bad..I promise I'll start updating more like ol' buddy ol' pal Farron does. The Donnas are one of my new favorite bands, ever since I got their CD. I need a new journal layout, its seriously sad. I'm LiveJournal stupid. Look what crazy Lefy made me!! *Looks up* It's of sweetie Joel! He's so cute! I &lt;3 Joel! I &lt;3 Lefy!! Hehe. I just finished an essay I wrote for my english class. <br /><br />I let my parents read it, and as usual what they have to say about it, is negative. "It puts down this..and puts down that..its so negative." "I see 1,295 spelling errors.Give me a pen and let me destroy your work of art with tons of stupid corrections." <br /><br />I got my CDs at that music store finally. The store bombed, but its cool..really. I need The Used new CD. This weekend, I'm going to go HTML crazy and start studying it, and making new layouts and stuff. I'm so sad..in how poor quality my skills have become. Thursday is a kick ass band, I like the song "Concealer" and "Paris in Flames". <br /><br />I decided to get one of their CDs "Full Collapse" after hearing how great they were from practically all my friends that are into emo. School sucks bananas. This layout craps. I need to take a shower. <br /><br />My dad has a crush on the lady judge from People's Court. He says shes "mad hot". Ewwww...my parents dont like me in particular. Wah! Erica is driving home from San Diego right now. <br /><br />I told my Mom I wanted to spend a day with her this weekend, like going to the mall and watching some movies together, so she called her up and told her, I was so embarassed. All of the sudden I've become shy. Pooie.I need to study right now, so bye. Yes, I'm a dork. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:3948 2003-01-13T01:08:36Z 2003-01-13T01:08:36Z "The Taste of Ink"--The Used <i>So here I am, into my hands, and I'll savor every moment of this, so here I am, alive at last, and I'll savor every moment of this!!!</i> Well...Farron told me to update this thing, so I feel like I should. I'm kind of tired right now..lol, yet at the same time hyper! I had a basketball game today. We won..Mrs.Doede and Chelsea were there, everyone was talking about it and were like, "Why are <i>they</i> here?" And I had to be like, "They are here, because I wanted them to be." I can't stand the dorkasses in my class. Roxanne and Angie are such stupid bitches.Go fuck yourselves, you two. I need to buy my CDs now dammit!!!! Ahhhh! I feel fat and ugly right now...Argghh! I hate school man! I hate it! ::spits out venim:: I want to go, since I have nothing to write about, because I'm just dumb like that. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:3650 2003-01-10T21:28:24Z 2003-03-03T01:28:38Z "Faith"--Limp Bizkit I'm feeling a little odd. I had no school today. I woke up early to get a dental teeth cleaning thing. I'm sick of the dentist. I'm sueing. After, Mom and Erica and I went out to Chinese. While we were there, Mom saw Dad's car drive by, and he was buying Taco Bell on his lunch break. He came in and starting going, "Hey, you guys get this gourmet meal and I get a lousy taco??" Haha. Kiki was half awake, and I was being obnoxious as usual. <br /><br />As we were entering the restaurant, Kiki was behind me, and as she was walking in, I stuck my butt out, and she got all disgusted. Then we came home, and I am now here. I think I had a fever or something, because last night, I just didn't go to sleep at all until like 3:00 am. MTV "Hits" is on right now. <br /><br /><br />I'm trying to stick around to see if I'll finally be able to see that new Box Car Racer video. I love them!! Just this week, I've been constantly listening to them. I have had their CD for awhile, just listened to it periodically. <br /><br />Some music, I just can't listen to, because it reminds me of Robert too much. But things have changed, and I don't love him anymore, and don't avoid listening to The Used or Thursday, just because it really makes me sad thinking of him anymore. <br /><br />I don't like anyone right now. No one likes me. I feel so lonely and...<i>single</i>.It was cool having a boyfriend for that little bit. I'm going to start up purging again. Not because I've become my cutting, suicidal self again, just because I feel ugly and fat, and want to change that. So now, I'm going to try that again. Shush, don't say anything, because I think its best for me. <br /><br />I lost $20 of my $40 bucks the other day, I was so depressed. I have a list of CDs I want to buy. Here they are:<br /> Simple Plan-No Pads,No Helmets...Just Balls<br /> The Used-The Used<br /> Weezer-Maladroit<br /> Kelly Osbourne-Shutup<br /> some Ataris CD (HAHA)<br /> <br />Thats what I want to get with my $50 buck gift certifcate. Think I can afford it? Maybe I'll drop a few CDS, but I definately have to get Simple Plan and The Used. I love them! I really need to go shopping for clothes soon too. I need money, man!!! <br /><br />Nana and Papa will be picking Sarah up soon and paying me. Yay! I need to go to some rock concert soon, I need to show my love!! It's all bottled up inside!! I'm coming Joel!! LOL urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:3532 2003-01-07T04:03:47Z 2003-01-07T04:03:47Z "Put Your Hands On My Shoulder"--Good Charlotte I am 41% Punk Rock<br><a href="http://www.fuali.com/default.aspx?id=101" target="_blank"><img src="http://www.fuali.com/pix/101/2.gif" border="0"></a><br>Well, I may know what punk is, but... Okay maybe some people think I am punk, but is that enough? Nope.<br><br><a href="http://www.fuali.com/default.aspx?id=101" target="_blank"><b>Take the Punk Rock Test at fuali.com </b></a><br />Heh. That's cool, I took that test awhile ago and got a poser's score. I'm coming up!! Haha. Nana just called, and she asked me if I would like to babysit her and Papa's dog while they go out of town for their anniversary. She's going to pay me too. Yay! And Kiki and I didn't go to the mall today, because she said there was too much traffic, so were going Saturday. So, I'll have money then!! Yay! And Jency is supposed to give me my money tommorow! Awhoot!! Friday I have no school!! YaY! I'm watching "That 70's Show"I love that show!! Eric and Donna were caught having sex in Eric's car by some po-po and so Donna goes, "Shit, Eric, what do we do?! I'm naked!" and he goes, "Hey, I have a plan.." He goes to the cop,"Go away please." LOL. I've never thought this before, but I love Ashton Kutcher! He's so cute and funny!! Ashton baby, LOL I &lt;3 you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:2860 2003-01-06T22:11:53Z 2003-03-03T01:23:30Z "The Princess Diaries" I just came back from the dentist. The dentist is so fucking full of shit!! He goes, "It won't hurt." But god fucking dammit!! I'm in so much pain!! They pulled two permanent teeth. I'm not getting braces until in a few weeks so they have to pull some teeth before I do. In two weeks, I'm going back to get 2 more pulled. Ughh...After the dentist, I had to go back to Lyons cuz I forgot my purse there. <br /><br />My Mom was so pissed off...I didn't say much to her because it hurt too much to speak. Then, we had to go to Office Depot because we had to buy some AntiVirus software shit for our (my) comp. Mom took forever there. I waited in the car, but then I opened the door to puke, and the alarm went off. So I had to run inside the store, get the keys, and yeah..I went in the store to piss though, then I threw up, then I gagged, then I puked up some more blood. Nice, huh? <br /><br />I just <b>LOVE</b> the dentist!!! I'm going to school tommorow. Wah! I have basketball practice today, I don't want to go, because my mouth hurts so much. I feel like someone just dropped a hammer on my mouth. <br /><br />I look like a fish with a hook in its mouth, since half of my mouth is nummed. LOL. I'm so sexy boys, come and get me!!! X.X<br /><br />I'm going to the mall today with Kiki.I got $20 bucks out of my Dad yesterday. Wo0t! But I really should have $40 bucks but Jency hasn't paid me back yet. I hate "The Princess Diaries"!!! It's so stupid. Where the fuck is "Genovia"??!! <br /><br />Tiffany has a boyfriend, Ughh...I need one!! Why does she have one??!! I need to nap or something, I'm so cranky and in pain. The laughing gas got me all high and dizzy. The numbing thing they put on me is wearing out and I'm getting more feeling in my mouth again. Oh shit..pain!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:2815 2003-01-06T02:20:12Z 2003-03-03T01:22:25Z "Sister,Sister" on the Disney Channel I never update this little fucker, I just for some reason..don't. Ha. Today is my last day of Christmas Vacation *Sobs* I know, it's utterly sad! But, I'm not going to school tommorow because I'm getting braces. For the very first time...I don't want braces!! I'll be looking like a total geek!!Noooo!! This isn't possible!! Ahhh! I'll be in a lot of pain too. <br /><br />I woke up at 2:00 this afternoon, because I went to bed late last night, at 2:00. lol. Erica had a friend spend the night and she didn't leave til like..4:30 pm. I was so lazy this morning, well...afternoonn, I had to throw myself out of bed!!! Because, I didn't want to sleep in late, because I know I have to get myself used to sleeping earlier, since craggily school is starting again. <br /><br />I want to buy the new Simple Plan CD dammit!! I need to use my gift certificate to HEarMUsic my uncle gave me for Christmas. Last night, I was so tired, and online and I tried going, but Dustin, as usual was being his talkative self and wouldn't shut up.. He was like "Do you know any hot girls you can hook me up with??" And I was like "Uhh..no." And then he just started talking his ass off..<br /><br />I was about to pass out. Haha. He's desperate for a girlfriend since Courtney like..dumped him last week or this week err sometime lately. I feel fat, I need to stop eating so much. I don't feel cool, I just feel like a big geek. <br /><br />Zach hates me and all this crap..Oh well, I've lost my close online buddies. I'll move on. I think Christine really hates me, geez... Ugh, I just asked my Dad for money, and he said "Sure, but can you help me with this grid?" <br /><br />It was a grid of some pipe thingy, I don't know what the fuck it was, but I listened to what he said it did, and concentrated hard, just cuz I want money, so I can go to the mall tommorow with my sis. Then he goes, "Thanks for the help, now get your ass up and outta here." I was like, "What??Where's my money?!" And he said I haven't paid him back from the last time I went to the mall, so yeah...Man! Jency give me my money! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:2195 2002-12-19T20:45:03Z 2002-12-19T20:45:03Z "I Feel So"--Box Car Racer I really need to start updating this thing as much as I do my DX! Well, I'm at Jency's right now and so is Chrisele. I'm having fun, but they're downstairs doing their own thing..Yeah, like they're both so pretty and shit..I don't know how to go about feeling apart of a crowd.Whats wrong with me? I feel out of place and ugly and shit..I need to just be myself and be laid back..But, I'm having a hard time thinking by being myself, that will get me anywhere, you know? Like maybe if I still am myself they won't like me. I just feel fat and ugly!!! Uggghhh!! Like, no wonder I'm boyfriend-less,and will probably remain this way. I'm an ugly fat cow!!! ='( Fuck, I'm a loser..<br /><br /> These days I find myself thinking off..about just stupid shit. About Robert, where he is, what he's doing..Cuz I'm a loser like that and have nothing better to do!! "...Do you care if I don't know what to say? Will you sleep tonight, will you think of me..?" I'm really tired of the same things happening with me. I'm tired of cutting, I'm tired of being depressed. It just doesn't do anything, it just pulls me further and further back until I can't catch up. I need to be something, I need to do something with myself. I just get so discouraged and disappointed so easily, its hard for me to have any ambition or have any hope. Hopefully, when we come back from break, I'll be studying <b>HARD</b> that way, my life can go back on track again and then maybe I won't let things slip away and die as I did. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:iiweezerfreakii:1655 2002-12-16T05:01:53Z 2002-12-16T05:01:53Z "Slob"--Weezer Arrite, I know I suck at updating! I've been up to nothing but usual shit. Hey, you wanna know something cool?! MR.WILSON SUCKS! I hate math class.. I spend 2 hours in math class on Wednesdays and I absolutely dread it. I also dread the end of school. Religion class sucks, but we act crazy in it. Mrs.ROLLIE POLLIE allows us to do just about whatever the fuck we want, and Kayla and I were fighting one time, in the middle of the aisle, and I had her in a headlock and Mrs.G didn't mind! Cool huh?? Justin is funny. Haha...Yup!!<br /><br /> We should be able to use the new lockers being put in this Monday or when we get back from Christmas break. Finally! Damn! It's about time we get these lockers put in! Shit...Sheena is a very confusing and complicated person..Damn! Blah blah...this update sucks, I should go now to see what Kiki is up to.